The distance

Just some words from my heart

Was thinking deeply recently on my relationship with God, and realised that I have stepped away from the track that He had prepared for me long long ago. Still pray to Him, but I can feel that it's no longer as 'hot' as before.

I admitted that I am a great sinner, I done something wrong and I pray for forgiveness, and then, I repeated the same mistake. What happen to the old me? I used to be so close with God. God has answered a few of my prayers and yet I gave no thankful heart to Him.

Sometime when I feel that life is too hard for me, God is everything I ever needed. I wanna change, I want God to be my everything in any situation. Truth to be said, all this while, it is not me who hold on God, but its God who hold on and protect me.

Temptations are everywhere in this world, its very easy for me, the weak one, to fall into these traps. For times I fail God, for times I fail to live a Christian life, yet oh Lord, your great mercy and unconditional forgiveness wash away my sin again and again. I'm not worthy to be the child of yours God :'(

I prayed to God wishing Him to give me strength to live a Christian life, but I myself did not put any effort in it. This will never draw me close to you if this continues. Lord, what can I do for me to go back to the humble and innocent life I used to have? Please help me...

Standing by the door knocking, hoping that God would allow me in. I remembered for times I have come and God has let me in without any further hesitation or doubt. And yet I doubt when it comes to witnessing the glory of God in front of non-Christian friends, I'm such a great sinner.

A song that can sum up my feelings, from Rush of fools- UNDO

I've been here before
Now, here I am again
Standing at the door
Praying You'll let me back in

To label me
A prodigal would be
Only scratching the surface
Of who I've been known to be

Turn me around, pick me up
Undo what I've become
Bring me back to the place
Of forgiveness and grace I need You,
I need Your help I can't do this myself You're the only one
Who can undo what I've become

I focused on the score
But I could never win
Trying to ignore
A life of hiding my sin

To label me
A hypocrite would be
Only scratching the surface
Of who I've been known to be

Turn me around, pick me up
Undo what I've become
Bring me back to the place
Of forgiveness and grace I need You,
I need Your help I can't do this myself You're the only one
Who can undo what I've become

Make every step lead me back to
The sovereign way that You

Turn me around, pick me up
Undo what I've become
Bring me back to the place
Of forgiveness and grace I need You,
I need Your help
I can't do this myself
You're the only one who can undo
You are the only one who can undo
You're the only one who can undo
What I've become

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